Growing out of Immaturity... hopefully

I am becoming more and more aware of how much my attitude affects what I get out of youth group. My eyes are being opened to a new vision that I have completely missed for the past two years, mostly out of my selfishness. I want our youth group to me so different from what it is that I am missing out on what we have now. Granted what we have now is not ideal, but I have let that affect me to the point that it has infected me also, and I have become exactly what I wanted to change. I want to be open with these people, and I shouldn't expect that it has to start with someone being open with me... it must start with me being open with them.

I want to be free to dance, to cry, to say amen, and to worship without being ashamed of that. So, with God's strength I am not. My hope is that others will follow, and if they don't, I must keep going in the way that God has directed me.