I feel very less crisis like this morning, but still very unsure and freaking out-ish. Really what it comes down to, is that I am trying to decide weather or not I should try to do gymnastics competitively. I would absolutely love to do so! It would be amazing... but there are a lot of things that I would have to give up, or could have to give up in order to do so, and then there is the possibility that it simply wouldn't happen.
There are two competition options, competing under USA gymnastics, or competting in the College level. Competeing under USAG would mean that I wouldn't be able to teach, probably at all for the time that I was competeing, and would probably limit if not eliminate debate... which... I don't know if I could do. If I don't debate next year, then my last competition ever would be modesto... that would make me very sad. But, I don't know if they would actually let me compete which is another issue. Because of how old I am most gyms probably won't let me on their competition teams, because of liability concerns. And if I did compete I would probably be competing aginst like 12 and 13 year olds... but that's ok, I don't really mind that at all. If I wanted to compete in college, even though I wouldn't be competing now I would still have to find a gym where I could train like crazy. I would have to get my full twist, which I am really close to, so if I worked on it I could get it, but I would also not to get a front-front, and a double back. I think if I worked hard, I could do it though. But. The closest colleges with a team are sacramento and san jose, which would mean no Stan State for college, which would mean I couldn't teach in college, and also with working on gymanstics around 20 hours a week, I couldn't have a job during college, which would mean that it would be a lot harder to pay for college.
Yes... I don't know what I should do... which means I get to talk to a million people about it this week. Including Devan which is kinda scary, but it's all good.
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Your Friend and family, Will surport you, whatever you decide. If I had Vote in your life, I would for vote for collage and you become teacher, or youth pastor, is there any money in debate? Where do you see self in 5 years. in 10 years? in 15 years, etc.
try find the right word, let me put this way, (forgive if say anything line), today you are just bethany, one day you will be just Bethany, you will fell in love, get married and have kids, if that are of your dreams, I know if Iam happy the pepole around me are happy, if I am sad the pepole around are sad.
Bethany, you will always have my Friendship, my surport! and my pray. I will always tell you the turth. the bottom line is you what best for you! did say too much?
I'll pray for you, hon. Whatever you decide, you'll be doing gymnastics, so it will be great. Let God guide you.
Of course you didn't say too much Jim. I appreciate what you have to say, and thank you for your prayers!
yesterday I had nothing to say, today I said alot, each day, it is own.
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