A First (Part 2)

I am really struggling as to what I should write. I want to express what I'm feeling, what's going on in my brain, in my body... but I don't want to come across as complaining. So, as you read this just keep in mind, I'm not trying to just whine to the world.

I woke up every four hours last night to take my pain medication. I went back to sleep so very easily because it makes me drowzy. I've been in this half awake half asleep state since 10:30 yesterday, but besides that everything seems normal now. It doesn't hurt to sit here and type away on my computer, to read the economist, to play around on flickr, everything seems normal, like nothing ever happened. And then I move, and the pain comes back, not just the pain that shoots through the middle of my back, but the pain at the thought of not being able to do what I love. The thoughts that I won't be able to teach, will probably have to skip out on the rest of the meets this year, including zones. That I won't touch a floor, won't touch the bars for more than a month.

That I can't do anything.

The hardest part about being sick or injured is that I can't. Everyone else has to do things for me. Laralyn, can you get me orange juice? Mom, can you get me a pillow? Dad, can you feed the cat for me? Can you? Please? Can I go outside? It hurts my pride that I can't do things for myself. That hurts more than the real pain. But then again, that pain is just as real as the physical.

It's nice to see how things work for the best.

The rest of my body, the injuries that I have lost count of can heal... I probably won't let the newest one completely heal, but the rest will, and my body will restore itself. I have to let it, because I can't do anything else. I have time now. I can hang out with friends, relax, rest, sleep, and visit my sister. My busy schedule has been destroyed, and I'm left not knowing what to do. I'll probably spend a lot of time just laying on my back with my computer on my lap, but I'll get to do other things as well that I never have time for. Finish crocheting my blanket, work on my Maille, read, just be. Funny how getting hurt does that to you.

(And my artist page is now up and running)

A First

Well, I got to do something today that I've never been able to do before. I took a trip in the ambulance. I'm fine, I'll live to see another day, but won't be doing or teaching gymnastics for a while. I'll have lots of time to do Math and Debate, thats for sure. So, don't worry too much. I'd appreciate prayers for my back, and what I should do for the next couple of days, being as I will be skipping out on roughly 25 hours of gymnastics in the next seven days. Thats a lot of time to do other things in... and to get very bored in :-)
~Bethany

::Singing with Joy::

At approximately 2:45 I officially became elated about this years debate topic, something that hasn't happened in a long while. I think we are going to be able to run the equivalent of the Marshall Islands case! :-D I can't even describe how happy I am.

::Happy Happy Happy::

Yesterday was the first debate round of the year, with my beautiful partner Kaitlin. It made me very happy. Though it was a little bit odd, because the first round last year was Chris and I against Kaitlin and Kelsey, and this year it was Myself and Kaitlin against Kelsey and Kirby (it would have been really wierd if it was against Kelsey and Chris) It was a lot of fun, and I am incredibly excited about this year. There are definately benefits to having a girl partner... like, sleepovers! I must say that I already am incredibly missing being partnered with Chris, but, I guess three years together might of been overdoing it just a little ;-) Good luck to Chris and Alex, may you beat us in half a million practice round, and may we never meet in double-octs!

On another note, I am getting ready to leave in a little less than an hour to go to my second ever gymnastics meet. Another reason to be really happy! Hopefully my knee doesn't bother me too much... I think I'm going to take it off after warm-ups, because it really does restrict my movement, which means points off. So, we'll see how everything goes.

And lastly, Happy Birthday to my amazing friend Adria! May your birthday be O so full of surprises ;-)

Street Acrobats... or something

This is hecka sweet!!! Kelsey sent me the link :-)

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7003884391464159886

I want to be able to do that.