In a State of Crisis

I feel very less crisis like this morning, but still very unsure and freaking out-ish. Really what it comes down to, is that I am trying to decide weather or not I should try to do gymnastics competitively. I would absolutely love to do so! It would be amazing... but there are a lot of things that I would have to give up, or could have to give up in order to do so, and then there is the possibility that it simply wouldn't happen.

There are two competition options, competing under USA gymnastics, or competting in the College level. Competeing under USAG would mean that I wouldn't be able to teach, probably at all for the time that I was competeing, and would probably limit if not eliminate debate... which... I don't know if I could do. If I don't debate next year, then my last competition ever would be modesto... that would make me very sad. But, I don't know if they would actually let me compete which is another issue. Because of how old I am most gyms probably won't let me on their competition teams, because of liability concerns. And if I did compete I would probably be competing aginst like 12 and 13 year olds... but that's ok, I don't really mind that at all. If I wanted to compete in college, even though I wouldn't be competing now I would still have to find a gym where I could train like crazy. I would have to get my full twist, which I am really close to, so if I worked on it I could get it, but I would also not to get a front-front, and a double back. I think if I worked hard, I could do it though. But. The closest colleges with a team are sacramento and san jose, which would mean no Stan State for college, which would mean I couldn't teach in college, and also with working on gymanstics around 20 hours a week, I couldn't have a job during college, which would mean that it would be a lot harder to pay for college.

Yes... I don't know what I should do... which means I get to talk to a million people about it this week. Including Devan which is kinda scary, but it's all good.

Two down many more to go

Well, the gymnastics meet went really well. I was dissapointed with my floor routine, but I hit everything else just about perfect. I got a full point higher on vault than I did at the last meet (a 9.4) which is very exciting. Hmmm, yes, I love gymnastics. I went to the gym early, so my gymnastics day started at 8:30 and ended at 5:30... yes, a good day. Also in my gymnastics day, I fell on the bars, beam, and floor. If we had done vault in the morning I probably would have fallen there too, so I am sporting a rather sore and bruised body, but am sooo happy :-) Yes, very happy indeed. I am so blessed to have the life I do. I really am.

Another Competition

Well, I have my second gymnastics competition Tomorrow. I love gymnastics. I wish that I could drop out of school and do more gymnastics... but then I remember that I only have a little bit of school left, and the only days I don't do gymanstics is Friday and Sunday, which are debate and church days. But I could do gymnastics in the mornings... I am so very happy that my job is to teach gymnastics. Three things that I love: kids, gymnastics and teaching, all put together. Yes, I very much so like gymnastics. I want to be like Betty Dali. If I can teach for fifty years, I will be sooo happy. Yes, indeed, that means that I only have 45 more years to go! :-)

Another Picture

I am so very happy about how this picture turned out, that I just had to share it :-)

Random

I have no clue how this happened, but we have a new car. It's a 2005 Trailblazer. It gets better fuel economy than the van which is good, but we still have the van until we can get Joshua's car fixed. But I'm excited... even though it is wierd to own an SUV (and even wierded to see mom driving one!)